Tuesday, April 19, 2011

I have honestly never quite understood ones ability to totally throw away their own opinions/beliefs to agree with another just for acceptance. If you stand for nothing, you will fall for everything. I have truly reached the point to where I do not care what anyone thinks, but the living day to day with the recurring issues has gotten quite old. I want to look at you and tell you up front, you are wrong. You act smug as if you have this power or respect you have not earned and certainly do not deserve. You brag about your conquests then break others down for theirs, or lack there of. I'm truly sorry you are not capable of a selfless emotion but that does not give you a right to attempt to ruin a good thing. Jealousy is an ugly thing, and it makes you an ugly person. The confusing part of these situations has always been, why do you care so much about the life I live? Nothing I am doing directly affects you. Don't get me wrong you are entitled, if capable, to have your opinions, rather I agree with them or not. Chances are if they are negative, I probably won't. But you cross a line when you feel the need to express these opinions repeatedly, not only to me, but to anyone you come in contact with. I can't even begin to count how many times I've met someone who disliked me before ever even coming into contact with me, which is fine as well because honestly I don't want followers in my life anyway. I want people who stand their ground, respect and defend themselves, and don't let others influence and control their lives. People who will bring positivity to my life. I've been put in so many situations lately where I can not be myself for fear of upsetting the ones I care about. I've tried to be respectful and take the high road because I know all you want is a reaction from me, but everyone reaches a point where they must put their foot down. I recently realized that maturity is simply the ability to tolerate more, and well I'm sure there will be another chance for me to be mature. Because honestly I'm putting myself through unnecessary aggravation for people I couldn't care less if I ever spoke to again. I assure you, that is going to change. One, among many, differences between us is that I don't care what you think, how you feel or what you do, until it affects me. Another is I do not get involved in everyone's lives because I'm too busy living my own. The biggest mistake you have made yet is believing you are irreplaceable or anything special. And of course thinking karma isn't going to kick you in the ass. But I'm done venting for now. brave new world is calling my name.

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