You're a disgusting person with a meaningless life. You see through rose-colored glasses. I'd love to rip your face apart. Stomp on your fucking ribs. Tear your lungs out. Tear your everything out and feed them to my children. Don't judge me when you've never held a conversation with me. Don't pretend you don't know what they say, because you do. You're as fucking wrong as the people I held my trust with. And none of you deserve the light of day. I hold my head high and say fuck the world. Because you'll never be on my level and you will never understand me. I'm completely happy with myself. I'm completely happy and i pity you. why do i always feel so alone. i'm always alone. i'm always different. i'm never understood. i'm always distant. i'm never in the right place at the right time. i say the wrong things. i say everything so fucking wrong. i don't mean it... i really... i don't mean it. i love people so much and i love what people have. but i can't stand feeling like i'm the only person standing on this earth... i'm tired of letting everything pass me by. i have so much potential. i can do anything, i can be anything. but i can't get over all the people who have let me down. i think if i encounter one person who lets me down, everyone else will do the same. i need to let my guard down. i need to be free. i need to be free. i need to be free. i don't feel like i have anything. i want to take all the things i own and just burn them. just tear myself to pieces. just to prove i am someone. but i know i am someone, i know i am... i can feel. i can see. i can hear. i am alive... but somehow... i can't get that nagging, aching feeling out of my chest that keeps saying i'm dead. i will no longer push people to think as i do. fuck the world. all i care about is generally, myself, and those who have, and will never leave me. it's not my fault i understand who i am, the laws of the world, and the idea of societal destruction. i am alone. i will always be alone. and i will always be feared. its not like i want it, but i see no point in letting people in.