This is hard. I don't even know how to tell you. I want so much for things to be different, but they aren't. I feel like the whole world is embarking on some kind of shit consciousness revolution. While I sit here. We are, collectively and individually, becoming more aware. I'm starting to recognize the hidden consequences of my actions and my choices. I am growing less inclined to live in a state of ignorance and denial. But at this very moment in time I want nothing but ignorance and denial, because I hate this. I feel like somebody is ripping my heart out and throwing it 300 miles away. I feel like everything is changing, and I like it just the way it is.