Quit lying to yourself. You will never amount to anything. It is easier to pity than to become something ugly. Religion is faith. Faith means more than believe. Black and white, there is no in-between. What color can you create when you have an absence of color? God.

I want to believe you. I want to care.

who am i?
who the fuck am i?
i need inspiration.
i need safety.
i need sanity.
i hate it when i get like this, so down... the world is just so big. there's too much. and i'm just one part of it. i'm just a part. i'm apart. and i'm falling apart. i need guidance. and i need stability. and i need someone who understands. and i need a reason to kick myself when i'm down instead of just falling to my knees begging for it to be quick, painless, merciless. i'm at the end of this fucking rope. i'm dangling. and all i have left is the shoes on my feet and the one thing inside me saying "you will become. you will inspire. you will be safe. you are sane." but i can't keep the "what ifs" out of my mind.