Today was a lot better. Two shots in the ass later.
I'm still blowing chunks like no tomorrow.
Jordan's funeral is saturday.
I hate everyone.

I'm sick and tired of being strong.
I'm not strong. I'm weaker than i've ever known.

I've never cried as much as I cried today.
I'll miss you forever.
I'll love you forever.

For you, I hope insane and complete pain and discomfort. I hope your life is void of any emotion that conveys any form of good. You're worthless. You're worthless. You're worthless. You're worthless. You're worthless. You're worthless. Your eyes shine so dimly. Kill yourself, save your body the trouble. fuck the way you think you think you know everything. fuck the way you think you think you can accuse. fuck the way you're completely overreaching, overachieving. fuck your bliss, i'd rather see you crash. fuck the free world, you can't make something out of nothing. freedom isn't real, free-will is an impossibility. take a look around. you will never understand how it feels to be anchored to everything you hate. i want to stab you in the back over, and over, and over, and over, and over. you're an impossibility. you're unappreciative. you're selfish and uninteresting. you take what you can't have. you take until there's nothing left. i hope you see the life you're leading is disgusting. you're scum. You failed. I'll never set myself up again.